Posts Tagged ‘brain farts’

 

Waaaah! I still cannot believe it’s already August. Time is slipping by real fast, I sometimes feel like I can’t keep up. But I am really excited for August because it’s my birthday month! Woot woot! 😀

Despite being very busy with work for the past two weeks, I am not complaining. I just turned one with Deutsche Bank last July 18, so that’s one thing to be happy about. 🙂 And this month is also looking great, so far.

I am sooooo looking forward to my long vacation! I am going home to visit my family in the province from 18th to 30th of this month. That’s more  than two weeks of home loving with the fambam and excited is an understatement of how I feel right now. I might be also learning how to drive manual *crossed fingers*.

And there’s all the home-cooked meals I need to devour. And the all the seafood! God, I can’t wait! 😀

So cheers to a legendary August, yeah? 😉

 

 

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There are things in life that just can’t be achieved in an instant. Saving up for a house, getting over a heartbreak or maybe as simple as venturing to unfamiliar places – these things might take time to accomplish. But this doesn’t mean they can’t be done. With continuous effort and perseverance, those things that were seemingly unattainable on the onset will be ticked off on your to-do list one by one. Little by little. Baby steps, my friend. Baby steps.

 

 

*Photo taken in Baguio City, Philippines

 

The weather in Manila has once again gone berserk. These past few days, it was pouring down hard. But today, the mighty sun’s rays pierced through my bedroom window and roused me from sleep before my alarm clock did. Annoying! Unfortunately, I had ~girly pains~ so I decided to go to work late, (12-9pm) instead of the usual 9am-6pm  shift.

 

The other day, I watched The Amazing Spider-man. Andrew Garfield is oh so hansummm! But Emma Stone elicited more squeals from me, heh. I just love her to bits. 🙂 But I like her more as a brunette. It’s as if the blonde hair softened her personality – well maybe that was the intention after all since the role she plays in this movie is not really a gutsy/ quirky one. In any case, the movie was still great. It was too great, I even dreamt about the slimy lizard villain. Ulk. Movie #37 out of my target 100 for the year. 🙂

 

Then yesterday was the hump-est of all Wednesday humpdays. I woke up feeling depressed and lost. I felt as if I am not having the most quality relationships. But then I keep questioning if I’m just being choosy and nit-picky. Bottomline: I keep liking people who don’t like me back. And the people who actually like me? I question their intentions and push them away. Bah! I just can’t with all these feelings.

 

It makes me wonder if I am already on the onset of my so-called quarter life crisis. For crying out loud, I am just about to turn 25 in more than a month’s time and this quarter life shite dares to show its ugly face this early on. Meh.

 

But then again, maybe it’s just the PMS… Oh the joys of being a girl!

 

 

 

Things I can’t really say upfront to certain people…

 

  • I still like you. As much as I try not to like you anymore, I still do. I have been trying to keep you off my mind. Believe me, I try so hard. To no avail. But I’ll get there. Soon enough, I’ll be okay with the idea of you being with someone else. But until then, you still are my Unrequited Love.

 

  • What will happen to us in the long run? I’m pretty sure we can’t stay like this forever. Sure, what we have now is fun. But what happens when the reality that we can never be together TOGETHER sets in?

 

  • Thank you for your attention. Seriously, thank you. You make me feel wanted and important. But I am sorry because I can never return the affection. I am sorry.

 

  • Please stop being such a bitch to me. I may tolerate you now, but I’m not sure if I can keep it up any longer. And you won’t like it when I get mad. Things can get messy, I swear.

 

  • I miss you! ♥♥♥ Don’t worry, we will soon be together again (even just for a short while). I never say it, but you’re the reason for all my hard work. Well, you and my desire for travel. Heh. 🙂 See  you real soon!

 

What are things you wish you could say to people around you but just can’t?

 

 

Just recently, I discovered a new form of art – the SPOKEN WORD. Sure, I have attended a couple of poetry reading and cultural nights before but never have I formally recognized Spoken Word as a real form of art.

I used to think that poems were supposed to always rhyme – that poems which do not rhyme are plainly not poetic at all. That’s why I could never get haikus. What with all the focus on counting and not rhyming. It’s stupid, I know. Forgive me and my apparent lack of artistic knowledge.

I am aware that I am not the most knowledgeable and cultured person. That’s why I always strive to learn new things. Thanks to tumblr and bloggers all over the world, I get to see things I would never have discovered on my own.

I saw a video of Sarah Kay performing one of her poems. I have never even heard of her or recognized spoken word as an art before I saw that video. When her performance ended, I couldn’t help myself from clicking on the other suggested videos. Before I knew it, I was totally hanging on to her words and watched at least ten of her performances in a row. I was hooked.

Here is one of my favorites from her:

 

 

And here’s Phil Kaye (Sarah’s co-founder of THE VOICE) with a pretty accurate description of the Spoken Word.

I don’t know about you but time really zooms by fast, yeah? One moment you’re just drinking sparkling grape juice while welcoming the new year and the next thing you know, BAM! It’s already the third month of the (not-so) new year! whatisthissorcery?.jpg

So what has happened over the past two months?

The usual. Been working my ass off, partying hard (lol not so much), squeezing in travel and leisure as much as I can, and eating a shit ton of fewd (I’ll have to tell you some other time about my fixation to milk teas!).

I don’t suppose things are about to change real soon. I am still buried knee-deep in office work, still drink and get buzzed whenever I can, looking at possibilities of beach tripsssssss in the next few months, and consuming food like it’s my job. THE USUAL. lol

And yeah, just this morning, I saw the trailer for THE GREATEST MOVIE EVER MADE. Watch it, watch it, watch it! Jimmy Kimmel is one hilarious punk.

So funny, leh?

How have you been? How is life treating you, so far?

A couple of weeks ago, I went on a solo trip to Baguio City. It was the first time that I travelled to an unfamiliar place alone and it was refreshing – I would love to do it again in the future. I would just like to share with you my thoughts which I scribbled on a napkin while having my lunch at a quaint cafe in the chilly city.

Many people are afraid to be alone. But not me. I love solidarity. I love the peace it usually brings. I am not afraid to be left alone with my thoughts.

Being alone means you can be yourself. You could order anything you want from a menu and not worry about how it would keep up to everyone’s differing tastes and expectations. Anyway, EVERYONE is only YOU.

You could eat as little (without the risk of appearing too prissy or timid or anything) or as much (without people judging how much of a pig you are) as you want.

Being alone brings a new sense of courage. Be not afraid of your decisions because you are not deciding for anyone else but you. You can take the risks, get lost in the crowd, or take the wrong turn. No one else will scold and scoff at you for the wrong decisions.

When you are alone, take time to evaluate how you feel about it. Because really, if you cannot be alone with yourself for a little while, how else could you expect someone else to be with you for the rest of their lives?

01/21/2012 || 01:00pm || Cafe by the Ruins || Baguio City