Jittery

Wednesday, July 7

4:27 PM
I have an interview with another company in less than three hours. I feel all jittery and shit coz I really don’t know what to expect. It’s been almost two years since I last applied for a job. In a way, Globe has been some sort of my comfort zone for the past years. But now, I really feel that I need to move on with my career (read: leave Globe) as I feel like I am being left behind in the race to success.

Come to think of it. I have been with the company for almost two years now (I’m turning two on the 16th) and I haven’t been promoted yet. No sign of promotion in the coming months, too. Most important to note – my salary has increased minimally. Newly hired staff these days gets paid more than I do. Freakin’ unfair if you ask me. Better just leave the company then than wait forever to get a significant raise or promotion.
So now, I’m trying to look for other opportunities – local and abroad. I would really like my next job to be high paying since I wanna save up for Graduate School. I think I might take a Masterals course next year. Therefore, I really need to save moolah as much as I can.

In other news, looking forward to this weekend. Something nice MIGHT happen and I HOPE I’m gonna get some. Meh. Been so long since the last one so I still don’t know what to expect. Praying for nothing but good things to come.

4:40 PM
Will have to present a report to the team tomorrow. Need to craft 3 slides or so. God, I hope I won’t mess up. I’m irked by my voice now, though. It’s all croaky and hoarse. I effin sound like a man. Ugh.

Oh, need to print a copy of my resume. I don’t have an envelope though. Will search through my file cabinet in a while. If I don’t have one, will just have to ask from Jing. Meh, I’m really nervous. LOL? Not.

6:07PM
Gaaaaaah! Still in the office. One hour til the interview. Jitters jitters. And I still have yet to print my resume. Ugh. This Angel, what a crammer.

A New Leaf

Tuesday, July 6

10:32 AM
Decided weeks ago to stop writing in my daily journal. It got boring after 6 months. Plus it’s too robotic – going home by the end of the day, trying to fight off sleep just so can update said journal with what I ate or who pissed me off that day. Then on weekends, I usually just stay at home, so my weekend entries are pretty much the same all throughout except when I travel or go home to he province. Meh. Better just drop the whole thing then.

So, Malaysia trip was a total success. I managed to get my heel cut by corals and my leg bitten by fishies but nonetheless, a very fun vacation overall. I tried parasailing for the first time. It’s so peaceful up there in the air. Time and all thoughts seemed to freeze and did nothing but absorb the majestic view. It would have been nice to share that moment with a special someone, but yeah, I don’t have a boyfriend so fucket.

10:52 AM
Ugh. Boss keeps coming to my desk to ask something. Will get back to this latah.

Was not able to continue thoughts for the day. LOL. I’m such a loser sometimes.

On douchebags and douchebaggery

After an unprecedented hiatus, I come back to my little corner in cyberspace to rant about recent shiznitz in my so-called life.

To top it off, I now make it official that I really fail in life. Oh how I wish I could enumerate the things I fail at. But for my sanity’s sake, and also pride, I will not write about them now.

Instead, I will gloat on my not so secret hang ups. Like my job. This job had slowly deteriorated my already deteriorating life. Social life to be exact. I rarely go out with friends now. Not that they do not ask me out, I keep bailing out on them in exchange of other overly pathetic activities – like cleaning the bathroom or folding my laundry. Stress from work is getting the best of me. I semi-consciously turn into an anti-social loner whenever reports pile up. Again, not that I cannot afford to put things off to tomorrow. I just tend to get stressed over work just thinking about them. Bleeech!

If there’s one good thing about my situation now, it is that I know I am not alone in this. Funny how almost everyone in the office feels like they’re stuck in a rut yet still thinks twice about leaving the company. No one can blame us, though. The friendship amongst us that developed over time is really priceless – unparalleled if I may say so.

But is it worth staying just because of friendship and other mushy whatnots? Is it worth all the stress, hyperacidity, sleeplessness and maybe even carpal tunnel syndrome? God, hopefully not the carpal tunnel. :S *shudder*

What do you do when getting to work feels like an everyday visit to hell?

P.S. I just realized I did not write about the thing I originally intended to write. Hence the unrelated title. I was supposed to talk about this douchebag jerk who I now wish was dead. But whatever.

Fuck you Tumblr

I can’t get my tumblr account to work. Fuck fuck fuck. Fuck!

So, reorg and other shitnitz is happening in the office. I was one of the lucky few who were not affected that much. But it’s still a big change nonetheless. For now, I can only hope for the best.

So, here’s the rest of the things that happened for the past few weeks.

Jay's birthday treat at Mr. Choi (Sep30) We were trying to emulate Athan's ginawin pose. So here's my team, with Jo as Sarah and Dey as Athan. Ahhh good times!

We surprised him with cakes (no chocolate cakes for him) and a kiddy birthday banner.

My futile attempt at bokeh. I love love this shot!

Oct10 - Had dinner with ny girls after more than a month of not seeing each other. Dined at Gotti's Ristorante then off to the movies to catch The Ugly Truth

Oct.11 - Camille's baby shower and despedida at Likha Diwa, UP Diliman

After Camille's despedida, Rio accompanied me to the dentist to get my teeth checked. After my check up, off we went to Greenhills. It was my first time shopping at Greenhills and I will definitely go back there.

I will try to post a more “fitting for WordPress post” after the office madness around me. And pardon my half complete sentences as I feel a little light headed from all the pain killers I have been taking eversince I had this terrible, terrible toothache. For now, ciao!

The Birth of Henry D4th-ee

May sira ang WordPress! Bigla akong nagka update, hehe.

I have been itching to post something in my blog for so long but whenever I attempt to, either I don’t have the time or the inspiration. At nilalamon na din kasi ako ng trabaho ko. Shitnitz.

Heniwey, kaya naman kasi ako biglang na inspire eh dahil kay Henry. Henry is my new partner. Napasaakin siya nung Friday, Sept.18. Hindi pa kami masyadong nagkakakilanlan pero alam kong mapapaligaya niya ako ng bonggang bongga. Mahaplos ko lang ang katawan niya, siyang siya na ako. Dati, naglalaway ako tuwing nakikita ko siya. Kasunod nun ang pagkirot ng dibdib ko dahil alam kong mahirap siyang abutin. Pero ngayon, AKIN NA SIYA! Bwahahaha!

Hihi. Ang halay lang! 🙂 Eto kasi yun oh:

Mukha lang dinuraan yung salamin. Haha. Kuha yan sa opis. Habang nagpapakabayani kami ni Jo sa pag OT.

Gets niyo ba yung title? Henry The Fourth. Kasi D40 yung model niya. May sense ba? Wala? K. 😦
*Also, thanks to Neri for the title. Hehe.

More test shots from Henry. 🙂

After getting Henry, Jing, Nero and I went to Megamall. Dapat bibili sila ng damit sa St. Francis pero hindi na namin naabutan. Nag Mega na lang kami pero wala silang nabiling damit kasi mahal daw.

At Curry Curry. Nero, mukhang umay na umay ka na naman ah! Hehe.

The tofu was good. Hindi nakakahigh.

Record breaker tayo Muder! 🙂

More from Henry in a few days.

Oh, and I will be flying to Cebu tomorrow for a very much needed break! Hope to have great captures there.